Wow Wow Wow!!! Thats all I have to say.  I have not written in this  journal for a long ass time.  So much has happened since then.  Hmmmm well lets see... I have turned 18, I went to New York and that was the best memory of my freaking life, what else oh yes went to state competiton and came back and my bro has now officially moved with my father.

       I got to say I really do miss that punk.  But I guess its what is best for him neh??  Hopefully I will get accepted to a good college or one of the colleges I have chosen which are UNT, West Texas A&M, Texas Tech, and I think imma apply to San Marcos.  So Yeh

       Yesterday was a fun day.  Went to school blah blah blah oh yeh weird shit,  as I was leaving economics yesterday Rob Man was going in and well we hugged and talked and what not and then like he was just looking at my lips and I noticed and like he just told me straight out "Monette you have Pretty lips" and I was like thanx Rob Man and like he came in and kissed me. Weird stuff.  Funny thing is, is that I think Mrs. Quaney my english teacher saw us, eh whateva it didnt mean anything he has a gf now and I dont think I like him as much.  So yeh then after school I went to do the play that I am in for one act to get judged by some critic guy. Eh we did ok it still sux though nothing like it would be if Medina was the director. After that I went to Sarah's party that was fun all my friends were there so it was all kool stuff.    

    Today I spent all day with My Highlight, that was fun he took me out to eat lunch at soupersalad. Ummmmmmm good stuff I must say.  Then we went to Pammy's house cuz she wasnt doing so well then we went to his house and watched Riding in cars with boys. awwww it was such a sad movie I cried, then I came home. 

     Some weird shit is happening wiht some of my friendships though.  Its like my friendships with both my best freinds Allison and Amanda are just falling apart.  Allison and I dont talk as much anymore.  We used to talk all the time and like hang out like every freaking weekend and every chance we had, and like now we dont even call eachother and not cuz were mad or at least I dont think so I guess its just the whole senior thing and the fact that we go to diff schools and she is hanging out with diff peeps now and possibly cuz of all the boys that are after her, I must say she is a lil hottie. Lets see Amanda and I are just drifting apart. We dont talk on the phone anymore and we barely even talk at school now. Its super weird and I dont know what it is but I guess things happen for a reason huh?? I talked to her about it once but nothing really changed so im just not gonna try she has carlos now and well thats that.  The good thing is that I know that I will always have My Highlight no matter what.  Miguelers and I have always been close but we are only getting closer and thats a good thing for me especially since my two gal friends dont talk to me as much he even noticed.  But yeh thats that. I dont feel like talking now. Possibly cuz im crying bout all this shit but soon I will get over it. And hopefully I will get into a good college and be ok over there, my Migulers says he will go and visit me, Yay!!!

DAMN I CANT BELIEVE I HAVE YET TO GO TO BED IT IS CURRENTLY 4:53 AM AND I STILL AM NOT IN BED. NOTHING IS BOTHERING ME BUT I JUST CANT SLEEP. WEIRD NEH? EH I DUNNO.

   HMM LETS SEE WHAT DID MONETTERS DO TODAY?? WELL I WENT TO MY JON JON'S B-DAY SURPRISE PARTY AT PETER PIPER PIZZA ON LEE TREVINO, JUST THOUGHT I WOULD ADD THAT.  IT WAS KOO I WENT AROUND 11:45 IT WAS CRAZY, CUZ OK WELL I WAS SITTIN AND WAITN BUT NO ONE WAS HERE YET SO I WAS LIKE HMMM IT WOULD SUCK IF JON JON CAME IN AND I WAS THE ONLY ONE. AND SO ME BEING A DUMB ASS SAW HIM IN HIS CAR AND PARK SO I FUCKING RAN TO THE CRAPPER AND I STAYED IN THER FOR ABOUT 20 MIN AND WHILE I WAS IN THER I SWEAR I HEARD A VOICE FROM ABOVE I SWEAR IT WAS COMING FROM THE VENT AND IT WAS A GIRL VOICE SAYING, "IM UP HERE" OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN UNTILL I GOT REALLY FREAKED OUT AND FINALLY ANSWERED BACK "WHERE" THEN THE VOICE REPLIED "UP HERE" THATS WHEN I REALLY FREAKED OUT AND RAN OUT THE CRAPPER TO FIND MY FRIEND MARY AND HER BRO. THEN I TOLD THEM THAT HE WAS HERE BUT PROLLY IN THE BOYS ROOM SO WE WENT TO MELROSE AND STAYED THER FOR A WHILE THEN WE JUST WENT BACK TO PETERS AND WE REALIZED THAT I WAS PROLLY PARANOID CUZ HE WAS NEVER THERE HA HA HA WHAT A MAROON NEH? SO YEH THEN WE WAITED AND CONSTANCE FINALLY BROUGHT HIM AND I WAS RIGHT IN HIS FACE AND SCREAMED HAPPY B-DAY IT WAS FUN. THEN WE ATE AND PLAYED GAMES EVERYONE WAS GIVING ME THERE TICKETS I ACCUMALATED 311. YAY! IM SAVING UNTILL I GET 2000 FOR A CHEER BEAR YAY GO ME!

  SO YEH. THEN WE LEFT AND WENT TO THE MONTWOOD MOVIES, U KNOW THEY USE TO BE THE DOLLAR MOVIES SHIT WHATEVA HAPPENED WITH THAT, DAMN NOW THEY ARE $2.50 SUX NUTS NEH? WELL YEH WE WENT IN CONSTANCES AWSOME CAR IT IS A CONVERTIABLE I FELT SO HOT IN THAT CAR, HA HA HA. NEWAYZ WE SAW SCHOOL OF ROCK. IT WAS A CUTE MOVIE PREETY FUNNY AS WELL. IMMA SOUND LIKE A CHESTER BUT THE LIL DRUMMER WAS HOT. HMMM I DUNNO WHATS UP WITHME AND DRUMMERS BUT I FIND THEM ALL ATTRACTIVE. WELL MAYBE ITS NOT ME ITS THEM THE DRUMMERS ARE ALWAYS HOT.
  SO YEH THEN WE WENT HOME I DROPPED OFF CHEECH(JONATHAN) AND THEN CAME HOME TO FIND THAT MY BRO AND MOM WERE STILL IN BED AT 6:30 PM AND HAD NOT YET WOKEN UP FROM LAST NITE. LAZY ASSES. BUT YEH SO HMM I DUNNO IM JUST RAMBLIN ON  AND ON IM LIKE ON A SUGA RUSH OR SOMETHING. SPEAKING OF SUGA RUSH U KNOW HOW PEEPS USE TO CALL ME SUGA MAMA JUST FOR FUNNIES CUZ OF MINES AND CYBORGS DUET? THEY KNOW HAVE A CARTOON CALLED SUGA MAMA. KOOL NEH? WELL YEH I THINK IM DONE NOW SO LATER DAYS. I GOT THAT FROM MOE HA HA HA WELL WHATEVA  I ACTUALLY LIKE IT AND I PROLLY SOUND KOOLER SAYING IT SO WHATEVA. J/K

  IF IM NOT MISTAKEN I THINK IMA GO TO ALISONS HOUSE TOMORROW HER DAD MIGHT PICK ME UP. SO THAT WILL BE FUN. DAMN I HAD NOT SPEND TIME WITH HER MUCH THIS YEAR. I GUESS CUZ OF THE WHOLE SENIOR YEAR AND DIFF FREINDS AND SHIT BUT ITS ALL GOOD CUZ WE ARE STILL BEST FREINDS AND ALWAYS BE AS A MATTER OF FACT SHE IS MY SIS MANDERS IS MY BEST FRIEND, AND MY HIGHLIGHT. BUT YEH SO WE HAVE SPENT SOME TIME TOGETHER THIS BREAK SO ITS BEEN KOOL. WE BE CATCHIN UP AND SHIT SO ITS ALL GOOD!! SO THATS ALL FOR NOW

DAMN HOW LONG HAS IT BEEN SINCE I HAVE WRITTEN IN THIS DAMN THING?? WELL SINCE I LAST READ I HAVE BEEN THROUGH A LOT OF SHIT.  WELL THE BIGGEST THING IS THAT I GOT IN A CAR ACCIDENT WITH ISSSAC, BRENDA, JOS,H AND JESUS BUT EVERYONE SURVIVED THANK GOD, I ON THE OTHER HAND BROKE MY PINKI AND MY THUMB AND I HAD TO WEAR A DAM CAST FOR A WHILE. IT SUXED BUT NOW THEY ARE OFF. AS A MATTER OF FACT MY THUMB KINA HURTS RIGHT NOW BUT WHATEVA. 

  I ALSO RAN AWAY FROM HOME FOR A WHILE AND I WAS LIVING WITH MY HIGHLIGHT (MIGULERS) U KNOW I REALLY LOVE THAT GUY. I ALSO WENT TO GO SEE MAE. DAMN THAT WAS FUCKING AWSOME IT'S LIKE MY DREAMS CAME TRUE. I  EVEN GOT MY FAV SONG DEDICATED TO ME BY DAVE THE LEAD SINGER, CUZ MY HIGHLIGHT ASKED HIM TO DO THAT FOR ME( I REALLY HOPE PAM DID NOT FEEL BAD ) I ALSO BOUGHT A SHIRT AND HAD DAVE SIGN IT AND I TOOK A PIC WITH HIM I ALSO GOT A BIG WONDERFUL HUG FROM HIM HE WAS ALL SWEATY BUT I DID NOT MIND THAT ONE BIT.  SO YEH THAT WAS LIKE MY GETAWAY FROM MY PROBLEMS, I REALLY NEEDED THAT. 

  OH YEH ALSO MY DAD CAME TO VISIT DOW FROM CALI SO  I SPENT XMAS EVE WITH MY DAD AND HIS FAMILY IT WAS OK CONSIDERING THAT I REALLY DONT SPEAK TO THEM. BUT THEN OF COURSE MY DAD'S BITCH CALLED AND WANTED HIM HOME RIGHT AWAY. SO HIM BEING WHOOPED DID SO AND LEFT ON X-MAS DAY, SO WE WENT WITH MY MOM AND THE FAMILY. THAT WAS PREETY FUN. I DINT REALLY TALK TO MY MOM MUCH THAT DAY BUT IT WAS OK.  I FINALLY HAD A LONG TALK WITH HER AND IT WAS PLEASENT WE GOT ALONG AND WE WERE ABLE TO TALK OUT ALL OF OUR PROBLEMS AND AGREED THAT WE WOULD BOTH CHANGE FOR THE BETTER.  I ALSO BELIEVE THAT MY BRO MAY BE MOVING WITH MY DAD PREETY SOON SO I HONESTLY THINK THAT WOULD JUST MAKE THINGS BETTER, BUT I THINK HE IS JUST WANTING MY BRO OVER THERE SO MY MOM COULD SENT HIM CHILD SUPPORT HER ATTORNEY ALREADY TOLD HER SHE WAS GONNA HAVE TO. THEN THE MONEY MIGHT STOP FOR ME CUZ IMMA BE 18 SO I DONT KNOW WHAT IS GONNA HAPPEN WITH THAT.BUT SO FAR MY MOM AND I HAVE NOT ARGUED OR FIGHTEN, (IS THAT A WORD??)

  BUT YEH I'M THROWING A LIL PARTY FOR NEW YEARS EVE, I HOPE IT WILL TURN OUT, IM KINDA BUMMED THAT MANDERS WONT BE HERE WITH US EH IT'S OK ILL SEE HER SOON AT SCHOOL. U KNOW SHE IS ONE GREAT GAL ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS I KNOW I CAN ALWAYS COUNT ON AND TRUST.  WELL I  GUESS THATS ALL THAT NEEDS TO BE EXPRESSED SO YEH .